i'am sad and cry agian

This is a story....
of my life... my love life....
i made a huge mistake....
and i just want to say this....
for u sayang.......

you will always be in my heart....
forever.... i will always love you...
take care of your self...
sorry for all the wrong doings....
that i did to you.....
i won't go near 50 feet from you....
but please allow me to watch you...
from FAR..... and if you are....
reading this.... the dreams we made....
even if u dont want to....
i will keep it until i achieve it....
i will give what i promissed for our dreams..
even if u r married with other guy......
please accept it... coz it belongs to u....
i know u really hate me....
even u said u forgive me....
but i know u have never forgive me...
coz u dont want to.....
have anything that got to do with me...
it surely not a forgiveness.....
i hope i could turn back the time.....
the time before we met.....
i'll make sure u never ...
knew me at that time....
so you wont ever....
get hurt this much....

I LOVE YOU....
WILL ALWAYS DO....
MAKE SURE U R HAPPY...
SO THAT I CAN....
DIE IN PEACE.....